Hey, I’ve been falling apart!

What I’ve been reading this season:

  • An Inconvenient Indian, by Thomas King: An ironic, hilarious, heartbreaking and highly readable history of how the Canadian and American treatment of Indigenous peoples has gone.
  • The New Jim Crow: Documenting the American storyline since slavery of how the Black experience has been targeted and challenged, deliberately, by government choices.
  • Surviving Canada – Indigenous Peoples Celebrate 150 Years of Betrayal: This collection of essays, history, articles, poetry and storytelling is earth-shattering, heartbreaking and transformative. There’s no going back after reading this. The myth of Canada will be shattered. For me, it has left me broken open, wondering what could possibly come next in this wicked chapter of the world’s hidden history.
  • 21 Things You May Not Know About the Indian Act – Bob Joseph: A thin volume that captures the essentials of how the Canadian colonial experiment has subjugated First Nations people over the years, the consequences, the current reality, and the hope ahead.
  • Indigenous Relations: Insights, Tips & Suggestions to Make Reconciliation a Reality (In progress)
  • Unclean by Richard Beck: An exploration of how Christian rituals and traditions end up creating an exclusive religion that causes its practitioners to experience pure disgust towards outsiders.
  • Bad Theology Kills by Kevin Miguel Garcia: A salty and self-published work by a queer Christian writer who brings a profound, personal work of prophecy and power to show their own way forward.
  • Sacred Fire: A Vision for a Deeper Human and Christian Maturity: A Catholic writer’s attempt to put the genie back in the bottle and convince readers that nothing’s wrong, it’s just midlife, persevere through this familiar angst until you eventually graduate into a new angst in your 60s.
  • The Great Spiritual Migration – How the World’s Largest Religion is Seeking a Better Way to Be Christian: This is a book that had me in tears before I was finished the introduction. “I’m not crazy,” I felt myself saying. “There really is a massive shift afoot. Christianity has been terrible. We must keep moving. Other people are thinking through these things too. It’s not just me.” It has helped me calm down a bit, aim myself forward, and feel confident that I can stay connected to my current communities as an agent of love and change in the world.
  • Designing Your Work Life – Bill Burnett and Dave Evans (In progress) – Reading as a way to explore how to redesign my own contributions, in light of my reorienting understanding
  • Seven Fallen Feathers (In progress)

To summarize, everything I’ve been reading lately had found me falling apart.

In the throes of this deconstruction, I recorded a song demo. It’s a cover of a song by Soccer Mommy, called Circle the Drain. Not perfectly produced, but a needed explosion and expression during this time of being split open.

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